Thinking

So yesterday a friend of mine took his own life. It has really got me thinking about a lot of things. His family is really in complete denial that he could have done this to himself, and I can completely understand where they are coming from. What I can't understand is why they would accuse his girlfriend of doing so. She was at one time my best friend and I know and understand her better than anyone. She's capable of a lot of things, but murder is not one of them. She loved him more than anyone she's ever been with. They had one problem-drugs.
I'm not all that religious, but I do have beliefs. There is one thing I'm not so sure of. I know people say that the bible states if you take your own life, you're damned to hell. Why is that? I sometimes think that people take their own life because they're tired of living the life they were givin and don't have the stregnth to change. Some would say it's a sign of weakness, but sometimes drugs really take a hold of people and they can't walk away. So what really made him weak? Wasn't it the drugs that really made him weak and maybe the only escape he found was ending it all? I really will miss him and I feel so horrible for his little girl. She wasn't living here with him, but she loved her daddy so much. She's nine years old and I can only imagine the pain she is going through. My little sister and her are best friends.
It really is a sad time and sad times always make me think too much. I could write tons more, but I'm going to take a break and get back to spending time with my son! Much love to my readers!